Week 1 in the Bag!

Here it is...FINALLY! Day 7! Tomorrow is surgery day! I know You guys have only been on this journey with me for a few days now, but to me, these past seven days have been the longest days of my life! I have had a multitude of emotions ride along with me. I've been happy, excited, sad, grumpy, scared, HUNGRY, satisfied, anxious, and nervous...need I go on?!

It has been a pretty overwhelming week, coming to grips with the attitude I want to posess from here on out is a difficult task. A lot of times I catch myself having my own little pitty party. I sit around and think about all the foods I'm NEVER going to get to eat again...dramatic..i know! I continuously tell myself how ridiculous I sound and that maybe once I have my surgery I won't want those foods anymore! I even hope that I won't desire them! In my meeting with the dietician last Wednesday She gave us a list of foods that might not agree with our bands after surgery, they included things like shrimp, greasy fried foods, popcorn, etc. and I actually sat there and said "Lord PLEASE let greasy and fried foods not agree with me," because the chance of throwing up would be motivation enough to stay away from those things that WILL be able to pass through my band and WILL be able to make me gain weight again!

The truth is is that this life altering decision I have made is so scary. I have found comfort in the food I choose to eat...and I have built relationships around food. My family gatherings are centered around food! I get excited for family get togethers because I know that their will always be great food...now I have to train myself to be excited for other things! This doesn't mean I can't be excited for food, let me tell you! I have never been more excited to eat strained mushroom soup (a food acceptable in my next diet stage). I get excited about the Chocolate mocha protein shakes that I turn into my very own ice coffee spiked with Benefiber...YUM! It is so silly but it is my daily Starbucks! It even has caffeine:)

I think excitement is the emotion that I feel the most! I am excited to continue on this journey! I am excited to have lost 9 lbs just this week! I'm excited about how little negativity and how much positivity and overwhelming support I have recieved. You who have read, commented, "liked," and/or messaged me are very much appreciated! You each make my journey a little easier so thank you! Thank you, Thank you!

Next time I write I'll have a new friend with me:) I think I'll name her! Suggestions are welcome and I'll post as soon as I decide and get to know her a bit!

Thanks for reading!
Love you all!

P.S. My surgery is scheduled at 7:30am tomorrow! Keep me in your prayers please!