Hey Ya'll!
I did it! I am banded and I am back! 8 days post surgery, finally rid of gas, and feeling fabulous (most of the time)!
Seriously though, this week has been a mix of miserable and AMAZING! It wasn't until Tuesday that I actually felt normal again (Wednesday through Tueday = miserable). That's a pretty quick recovery but it felt way longer. I am still getting used to my body that holds my new tool. I experience a lot of funny things in my stomach most of the time. Some more bearable than others.
Since yesterday, I am a week post op and therefore officially done with liquid foods! In fact I am supposed to avoid them. Now I am in the "mushie" stage. Anything the consistency of baby food is fair game. SO! how you wonder have I managed to already eat fast food? Well...I was hungry, I was out, and I refuse to "miss out" on things because I am banded. So I went to taco bell and ordered these wonderful things called "pintos and cheese" basically refried beans (which are definite YESes in this stage). Silly enough, it was one of many highlights in my day. I plugged them into My Fitness Pal and moved on! (Yesterday = Amazing)
My attitude in this is the most important I think, and so far many people remind me of how positive I am! I need those reminders, So thank you! I am so happy with my decision and how things are going so far! Also afraid! Right now it is EASY to follow the rules. I am eating well because I am trying to heal my stomach and avoid vomiting (successful so far!) Soon though, in about three weeks, I'll be healed and it'll be easier to make unhealthy choices. I try to stay in today and focus on the now but the muddiness of the future really does worry me. I keep reminding myself to take it one day at a time.
Food is such a huge part of many things, like the Kentucky State Fair for instance...uh let me tell you...I LOOK FORWARD TO FOOT LONG CORN DOGS...EVERY YEAR! This year, I am looking forward to finding SOMETHING that's remotely not HORRIBLE for me and mushie! If I don't find it, that's okay! I am also soo looking forward to walking hand and hand with my boyfriend through the flee market part, basically the only reason we go...that and corn dogs of course! :) I am looking forward to Sophia's second birthday party on Saturday and trying out a pureed taco...honestly I'm more excited for the party and seeing her joy than the taco, but I also can't wait to try this taco:)
So many positive awesome things are happening and I am learning that I need food for fuel and nothing more. I cannot wait to continue on my journey! I thank all of you for being apart of it, I want to thank my sister for putting my awesome binder together and to all of you for writing me prayers or words of encouragement or wisdom! They were amazing to read the day after surgery and will be nice to read right before I head to the fair as motivation to look past the corn dog stand:)
No name has been given to my little friend...still getting to know her!
Finally, I have been told by several people that comments are being lost once you post :( so sad! I love the comments I get on here, and on Facebook too! So here is the thing, in order to leave me a comment on my blog you have to log into your gmail account. Feel free to add me to your email list or "circles" my email is jacinta.tinsley21@gmail.com You can view my blog my clicking on it when viewing my google+ account!
Thanks for reading
-Jacinta
Thursday, August 14, 2014
Tuesday, August 5, 2014
Week 1 in the Bag!
Here it is...FINALLY! Day 7! Tomorrow is surgery day! I know You guys have only been on this journey with me for a few days now, but to me, these past seven days have been the longest days of my life! I have had a multitude of emotions ride along with me. I've been happy, excited, sad, grumpy, scared, HUNGRY, satisfied, anxious, and nervous...need I go on?!
It has been a pretty overwhelming week, coming to grips with the attitude I want to posess from here on out is a difficult task. A lot of times I catch myself having my own little pitty party. I sit around and think about all the foods I'm NEVER going to get to eat again...dramatic..i know! I continuously tell myself how ridiculous I sound and that maybe once I have my surgery I won't want those foods anymore! I even hope that I won't desire them! In my meeting with the dietician last Wednesday She gave us a list of foods that might not agree with our bands after surgery, they included things like shrimp, greasy fried foods, popcorn, etc. and I actually sat there and said "Lord PLEASE let greasy and fried foods not agree with me," because the chance of throwing up would be motivation enough to stay away from those things that WILL be able to pass through my band and WILL be able to make me gain weight again!
The truth is is that this life altering decision I have made is so scary. I have found comfort in the food I choose to eat...and I have built relationships around food. My family gatherings are centered around food! I get excited for family get togethers because I know that their will always be great food...now I have to train myself to be excited for other things! This doesn't mean I can't be excited for food, let me tell you! I have never been more excited to eat strained mushroom soup (a food acceptable in my next diet stage). I get excited about the Chocolate mocha protein shakes that I turn into my very own ice coffee spiked with Benefiber...YUM! It is so silly but it is my daily Starbucks! It even has caffeine:)
I think excitement is the emotion that I feel the most! I am excited to continue on this journey! I am excited to have lost 9 lbs just this week! I'm excited about how little negativity and how much positivity and overwhelming support I have recieved. You who have read, commented, "liked," and/or messaged me are very much appreciated! You each make my journey a little easier so thank you! Thank you, Thank you!
Next time I write I'll have a new friend with me:) I think I'll name her! Suggestions are welcome and I'll post as soon as I decide and get to know her a bit!
Thanks for reading!
Love you all!
P.S. My surgery is scheduled at 7:30am tomorrow! Keep me in your prayers please!
It has been a pretty overwhelming week, coming to grips with the attitude I want to posess from here on out is a difficult task. A lot of times I catch myself having my own little pitty party. I sit around and think about all the foods I'm NEVER going to get to eat again...dramatic..i know! I continuously tell myself how ridiculous I sound and that maybe once I have my surgery I won't want those foods anymore! I even hope that I won't desire them! In my meeting with the dietician last Wednesday She gave us a list of foods that might not agree with our bands after surgery, they included things like shrimp, greasy fried foods, popcorn, etc. and I actually sat there and said "Lord PLEASE let greasy and fried foods not agree with me," because the chance of throwing up would be motivation enough to stay away from those things that WILL be able to pass through my band and WILL be able to make me gain weight again!
The truth is is that this life altering decision I have made is so scary. I have found comfort in the food I choose to eat...and I have built relationships around food. My family gatherings are centered around food! I get excited for family get togethers because I know that their will always be great food...now I have to train myself to be excited for other things! This doesn't mean I can't be excited for food, let me tell you! I have never been more excited to eat strained mushroom soup (a food acceptable in my next diet stage). I get excited about the Chocolate mocha protein shakes that I turn into my very own ice coffee spiked with Benefiber...YUM! It is so silly but it is my daily Starbucks! It even has caffeine:)
I think excitement is the emotion that I feel the most! I am excited to continue on this journey! I am excited to have lost 9 lbs just this week! I'm excited about how little negativity and how much positivity and overwhelming support I have recieved. You who have read, commented, "liked," and/or messaged me are very much appreciated! You each make my journey a little easier so thank you! Thank you, Thank you!
Next time I write I'll have a new friend with me:) I think I'll name her! Suggestions are welcome and I'll post as soon as I decide and get to know her a bit!
Thanks for reading!
Love you all!
P.S. My surgery is scheduled at 7:30am tomorrow! Keep me in your prayers please!
Sunday, August 3, 2014
Shrinking My Liver!
Okay, so before I just dive on in I guess I should tell you all the purpose of this blog.
The purpose: I am getting a Lap Band, and I was told I should journal, so I am sharing it with you:)
Please keep me in check!
The Beginning of the Beginning:
Around Thanksgiving last year, My mom approached me with the suggestion of looking into the Lap Band Surgery. She knew a woman who had recently gotten one and decided to get the insurance I would need just in case I decided it was for me (JUST IN CASE PEOPLE!). My mom agreed to pay extra for a whole year, just in case...hmmm I thought... she's brave:)
I decided to start looking into the Lap Band surgery. She mentioned this in passing as to suggest the option but not push it. I had always wondered about the possibility but never researched or followed through! I worried about judgment and also knew NOTHING about it. She gave me the motivation I apparently needed and I began my thought process, just thinking for now! Eventually I decided to research and talk to the friend of my mom's that had recently gotten her band and ultimately decided to start my journey!
I first had to wait until January (this is when the new insurance set in), and then wanted to wait until after my 21st birthday (JAN. 28), but the whole time I prepared myself, discussed with certain people, and researched this life changing possibility!
I began the process one random day by calling the Lap Band of Louisville! Possibly around the time a lady at work looked at me and said "no offense, but I hate when real big people get on roller coasters and they don't fit and then they fall off..." Okay? What? Did I just get stereotyped for being fat...WOW! For the record I have never 1. Not fit on a roller coaster and 2. FALLEN OFF OF ONE!
Anyways, They sent me medical history papers which I quickly filled out and sent back! Whew...step one complete. After that I waited and waited until I was able to schedule my initial consultation with the surgeon. This was followed up by a psychological evaluation (I'm not insane guys! A psychiatrist confirmed it!), and approval from my insurance company! Holy cow it was getting real! Next was to schedule three appointments (ONE OF THEM BEING SURGERY!). I had to get testing done, meet my surgeon again, and then have surgery. Easy enough...well scary enough too! I just met with my surgeon for the second time on Wednesday and I am three days away from surgery...3!
With that being said, I am five days into my pre op diet...2 MORE DAYS TO GO!
My diet is mostly liquids with the exception of 2 servings of veggies (raw...and might i add no ranch dipping sauce:)) 2 servings of fruits (a half a banana is a serving...wtf?) and 3 servings of dairy (cheese slices not included). I can eat all the jello and sugar free popsicles I want (GAG!) and drink as much chicken broth and water as I'd like! Needless to say...I'm struggling.
So I am sitting here hungry, and decided to create this blog instead of standing at the refrigerator
staring at all the things I can't have. SO far it is working...
The purpose: I am getting a Lap Band, and I was told I should journal, so I am sharing it with you:)
Please keep me in check!
The Beginning of the Beginning:
Around Thanksgiving last year, My mom approached me with the suggestion of looking into the Lap Band Surgery. She knew a woman who had recently gotten one and decided to get the insurance I would need just in case I decided it was for me (JUST IN CASE PEOPLE!). My mom agreed to pay extra for a whole year, just in case...hmmm I thought... she's brave:)
I decided to start looking into the Lap Band surgery. She mentioned this in passing as to suggest the option but not push it. I had always wondered about the possibility but never researched or followed through! I worried about judgment and also knew NOTHING about it. She gave me the motivation I apparently needed and I began my thought process, just thinking for now! Eventually I decided to research and talk to the friend of my mom's that had recently gotten her band and ultimately decided to start my journey!
I first had to wait until January (this is when the new insurance set in), and then wanted to wait until after my 21st birthday (JAN. 28), but the whole time I prepared myself, discussed with certain people, and researched this life changing possibility!
I began the process one random day by calling the Lap Band of Louisville! Possibly around the time a lady at work looked at me and said "no offense, but I hate when real big people get on roller coasters and they don't fit and then they fall off..." Okay? What? Did I just get stereotyped for being fat...WOW! For the record I have never 1. Not fit on a roller coaster and 2. FALLEN OFF OF ONE!
Anyways, They sent me medical history papers which I quickly filled out and sent back! Whew...step one complete. After that I waited and waited until I was able to schedule my initial consultation with the surgeon. This was followed up by a psychological evaluation (I'm not insane guys! A psychiatrist confirmed it!), and approval from my insurance company! Holy cow it was getting real! Next was to schedule three appointments (ONE OF THEM BEING SURGERY!). I had to get testing done, meet my surgeon again, and then have surgery. Easy enough...well scary enough too! I just met with my surgeon for the second time on Wednesday and I am three days away from surgery...3!
With that being said, I am five days into my pre op diet...2 MORE DAYS TO GO!
My diet is mostly liquids with the exception of 2 servings of veggies (raw...and might i add no ranch dipping sauce:)) 2 servings of fruits (a half a banana is a serving...wtf?) and 3 servings of dairy (cheese slices not included). I can eat all the jello and sugar free popsicles I want (GAG!) and drink as much chicken broth and water as I'd like! Needless to say...I'm struggling.
So I am sitting here hungry, and decided to create this blog instead of standing at the refrigerator
staring at all the things I can't have. SO far it is working...
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